Last week I decided to go and see my Significant Other,
and I did.
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It was per se wonderful. I didn't regret my decision of getting lost and taking the wrong train.
I'd given her a gift in a box which I had wrote a note in hopes she would be mine.
Yeah I was too scared to confess face to face, problems?
You know the mixed feelings where you regret your decision in thought of it ruining a wonderful experience?
I really did had a wonderful time, and at the moment I reached home I thought I had ruined it for her.
I just don't know how to explain this.
I'm too scared of losing her.
She symbolically is everything to me and I've set my heart on her.
I have no self confidence.
That was the problem.
You see,
Here's a guy, 5'6'', 100lb,
Can't play most sports,
Clumsy, A nerd, A geek and can't even cook.
I'm not a great guy.
I guess I'm just fed up of being lonely again.
But she, she is something.
She rejected being my girlfriend, but somehow deep down we both accepted the status.
She gave me hope even if she doesn't want me to hope on her.
We're not a couple, yet this is the most beautiful relationship I've ever had.
She's afraid of losing me. She cares for me. She doesn't want to be my girlfriend because she's afraid if she does and we fight we won't ever be friends anymore. She considers me her Significant Other at heart without even recognizing the status publicly.
I found myself not giving a mind.
I'm actually smiling.
