Addiction to Feelings

Everyone has feelings right?

Yeah, but the way they experience it is diff.

So you're saying that someone might have the same feelings as I am, but their perception is different?

Yes.

*Sigh*

What I can say is, my feelings suck a lot.

Why?

Cuz I feel a bit too much.

Shouldn't that be good?
Be me, then you'll know.

Over the course of my life. I had crushes, some are true, and some are just lust.

But...

      What hurts most are the true ones. The ones that pains you to see your crush is with someone else. The ones that make you regret your decision for not acting early enough. The one that may cause depression, stress and most fearful, death.

But,

That one is the most sweetest kind of love.

I also hate sentimental feelings. Attachments to people, places and stuff.

 

That's the reason why I'm so lazy to clean my stuff up.

I could not bear to depart with childhood memories,

Knowing someday I won't remember them

Attachments to my old school, 

Damn I miss my friends,

I miss just seeing my crush's face,
I miss sweating profoundly cuz of that,

ROFL!

But right now... 

Right at this moment,
Yup,
I miss my friends,

The ones I'd shared 3 years of life with,

Every single day for 7 hours.

I've also got a lot of stuff going through my mind,

Moving to London, check.
Boarding school, check.

Examination and study stress, check.

Mixed feelings, check.

Diving calling, check.

Emptiness, check.

The thing is... I'm an introvert. I don't do well talking to people face to face. I sometimes stutter. I'm anxious around girls, and I'm not physically fit. Why am I aware of these things is 'cuz I am too damn SELF AWARE!

I just need someone to listen to my feelings. To tell me it's going to be alright... 

Sometimes, the motivator needs motivating.

To my friends in my old school, 

I miss you guys.

Peace be unto all of us in this time of need.